40 in 40 Update

My 40 in 40 list has been out for a couple months now, and people keep asking me what I’ve finished on the list.

Unfortunately, the answer is nothing…completely.

Many of the items on my list are things that have to do many times: visit 4 new restaurants, buy flowers once a month, try 4 new ice cream joints, etc. And some are items that can’t happen until a later day, like going through a corn maze.

That being said, I’m making progress. I’ve visited a few restaurants, been buying flowers every month (look at those gorgeous May ones), and have tried an ice cream joint where the serving sizes are as big as my head (Nelson’s).

So I’ve done some things. I just haven’t completely finished one thing yet, but I’m getting there.

Next up: I’m meeting with a tattoo artist soon to start working on designs for my first tattoo!

 

39th birthday

It’s my 39th birthday, the final year before I turn the big 4-0. I have no real reason why, but I’m not looking forward to 40.

I should be ecstatic. I feel more stable in life, with a home, wonderful family members, a job I love, and some fantastic friends who are like family. I’m not in my 20s and scrounging to make it, or in my 30s and still trying to figure out where I belong. I feel more stable than ever before, and it’s a great, satisfying feeling, but 4-0 still weighs heavily on me.

I still remember when my mom turned 40. It was old. It was really, really old. And back then she looked old. Of course, I was only 8 at the time, so 30, even 20, looked old, but something about 40 seemed exceedingly old.

But how can I be exceedingly old? I’m not old. I still feel like I’m just about to hit 30, so how in a year will I be 40?

It’s silly, and I know it’s silly, because my mom was not exceedingly old at 40 and neither am I, but this unrealistic fear of the number hovers over me.

To help me try to embrace 40, I decided I needed to do something to celebrate it, so I’m stealing an idea. My friend Megan did a 40 in 40, 40 things to do during the year leading up to 40, and I thought it was such a great idea. I’ve been so excited trying to come up with my list of 40 and I’ve been talking about it with everyone. Even yesterday I got my dentist excited about the idea and she’s stealing it to do a 30 in 30 with her husband to celebrate their 30th wedding anniversary.

So I’m going to do a 40 in 40. 40 fun things leading up to me actually turning 40. These are things I haven’t done in a long time orĀ  I’ve never done. Some are bigger, like taking a trip somewhere new, and some are more simple, like baking bread from scratch, but I’m hoping if I do these things in the year leading up to the big 4-0 it won’t look so grim.

Check out my 40 in 40 list. Want to do any of them with me?

This year, for real

Last year I said I’d blog more. Even though I don’t really do resolutions, I declared blogging was mine.

So, about that. This is my first post since last May.

But this year is going to be the year because this year I’m doing a 40 in 40.

At the end of February I turn 39. I have not fully accepted the fact that I’m this close to 40, but I decided I’m going to embrace it. To help me embrace it, I’m going to come up with 40 things I need to do in my 40th year. Some things will be silly, like sending $20 to different people and having them tell me how they spent it. Some things will be more elaborate, like visiting a state I haven’t visited before. But there will be 40 of them and I will blog about all of them.

Now, to start that 40 in 40 list…